My paintings represent a grasp for happiness through chronic illness and bereavement, and many of my pieces are prompted by intrusive thoughts made visual. The chaotic, electric colours I use stem from vision problems I developed during Long Covid and lend themselves to my manic pace of output. I make paintings that feature riotous palettes and physical brushwork that often feel initially joyous but are underpinned with frantic disquiet: an exploration of my anxiety. Intentionally avoiding visual references, I instead work from memory as a means of developing an intuitive, naive language of painterly mark-making.